Friday, October 10, 2014

Meet My Friend Dawn!

Friday, October 10, 2014

Hello all! I love to feature my friends here when they have something amazing to say. Dawn has been a long time friend. She sells 31, does the pastor wife thing, pulls a full time job, and is a mom. Not to mention is a great writer. Let us all encourage HER to start blogging! Thank you Dawn for letting us inside your head and sharing your heart with us!

In October of 2009, Dawn wrote this. A second child later, these words are remain truth. I hope this can speak to you all in some way.



What does Motherhood mean to me?
Wow – that question spawns so many topics…how am I supposed to keep this to 300 words? Well, here it goes. First, some background about my journey to become a mommy…

Before my precious Zoe was born, it was 8 long years of my husband Chris and I trying to conceive, miscarrying once and then trying to get pregnant again. Those years were full of the pain of loss, attending and organizing countless baby showers that I wished were mine, but weren’t, and at least 100 negative pregnancy tests. We were aching to be pregnant. It was as if we were “constipated with love” to pour out on a child. Though we were frustrated, angry and confused (why isn’t this happening for us?), that time in our lives helped to prepare us for what was to come, and brought us closer together than ever before. We never gave up hope that God would send us our little one.

On Friday, August 8th, 2008 (yes, 8/8/08!) our dream came true. I decided to take the last pregnancy test in the box and vowed that if this wasn’t positive, I wasn’t going to buy any more for a while. Negative results were too painful. I remember trembling as I brought the positive pee-filled stick over to show Chris and we held each other and cried.

My pregnancy was happy, healthy and blissful….even during my first and last trimester when I spent nearly every night on my knees before the porcelain throne – I thanked God for my little girl and knew she was worth every heave. Those months were filled with such busyness – our baby showers (finally!) and the transformation of the guest room which now would become the long-awaited nursery.

Zoe Elaine was born on April 7, 2009. It was one of the happiest days of my life. The instant I saw her I was in love. She was (and is) so beautiful and healthy. She brings so much joy to our lives.

Which brings me back to the question at the top of this essay…for me, Motherhood is…the highest of callings. It's the total denial of oneself. It’s falling asleep in the chair while breast-pumping at 2 AM (yes, I’m guilty). It’s taking the time to pack and unpack the diaper bag – day after day. It’s about being willing to be spit up on and pooped on. It’s about taking time for the little details – changing loads of diapers and sucking boogers with the bulb syringe. It’s about sacrificing my wants and needs and tending to hers. And…it’s being willing to do it all over again if needed. Motherhood is having a love so deep and intense for someone else that it is (almost) physically painful. Before becoming a mommy, I had never experienced anything like it.

I am looking forward to more additions to our family. But for now, I am going to enjoy every moment the first time around. I am looking forward to more baby giggles, more holidays and more "firsts". No matter how many twists and turns on this road called Motherhood, I’m determined to enjoy the scenery
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